The rock you put aside

You walk along, you have a long way to go but you're carrying a rock with you. You get tired and fed up sometimes and you notice that the rock you're carrying is slowly becoming another burden that you must be carrying. So you decide to put it aside, probably on top of a wall or something. You plan it perfectly, you will take it back on the way back, assuming nothing will change. But, a wind might take the rock off the wall, or the rain might move the rock away. Consequently, you may not find the rock on the way back home. But you don't think that far. You think everything will stay the same. It will not.

Emotions are weak

You know so well all your emotions will settle when you take time and you will not utter the words that carry emotions; consequently, you will not sound emotional. Cos you hate emotions. Cos emotions are weak. Cos emotions are complicated. Cause emotions create problems. Cos you don't know how to deal with emotions. You're the logic, you're the reason and you are sound. Consequently, you have made your mind: you will not let emotions take over and blur your judgement. If they ever, but ever, seem to be slightly taking over, you will take time and keep your distance and then mask them, plaster them, render them with logic later on and you will, therefore, lie.

Everything changes

There's one thing for sure: Everything changes and everything is fluid and everything flows. 

Even when you take one sip of your water and then the second sip, everything changes. The water is not the same any longer, for starters: it has changed as soon as you have taken your first sip of it. Even the first and the second sips are not the same: they taste different somehow. You don't take the same pleasure that you have taken from the first sip as you do from the second one. What's more, the glass even doesn't look the same, it is emptier (or fuller - well you know the story and quote quite well, so I refuse to go into details). And you are not the same person as you were a few seconds ago. You were thirsty, now you are not. When all these changes are happening what do you do, feel and think? Probably something else, something more urgent, more crucial.

Unpredictability

You do not take other people's feelings into account, that's your mistake. You think they would sit still and wait around until you make your mind. You think nothing would ever change, you would find them where you left them meanwhile. You should have known better, however, people are quite unpredictable.

So discreetly

You do everything so discreetly and so gracefully. In every move you make there are thousands of thoughts and planning. I wish you hadn't planned everything so well. I wish without any borders, walls and frameworks you could have lived your life to its full potential and let the winds of nowhere take you off the ground that you rooted so well. Are you afraid, actually, that you would enjoy something, something against what you have planned. Are you frightened that you might have to change all your careful planning and so-well-going life? Are you scared that you'd be happy?